To all who I have wronged

JAN MYBURGH WRITES:I am writing this letter to publically apologize to everyone who I have wronged when I was living and working in Namibia. I would like to explain what happened and express my regret.When I moved to Namibia, I was in love. Which was my reason for moving there in the first place.At first I tried real hard to build a business and create a good life. But things started going wrong early. Problems arose in my personal life and my marriage. Things which I cannot make public.I used to blame everything on those problems, but what I didn't want to accept was that I was too weak, and ultimately I could only blame things on myself. I was overlooking the problems in my marriage and kept trying to fight for the success of it. What I didn't realize at the time was that I was fighting for it in the wrong manner and that it was all in vain. Yet I still continued trying to fight blindly and it became my ultimate focus.Eventually I fell into depression, because nothing was working and going right, and things got worse in the war I was busy fighting to fix things. I went as far as attempting to take my own life, but both times my attempts failed. Once I woke up in hospital two days later, and another later the day.Ultimately I gave myself over to substance abuse in an attempt to overdose and hopefully succeed in ending my life. I was still trying to build a business and trying to eliminate my personal and marriage problems at the same time. My focus on my personal issues were increasing every day, so much that I bought a vehicle I couldn't afford and rented a house I couldn't afford. I felt under pressure to make my marriage work because I never believed in failure.With the failure evident and my substance abuse, the worst was yet to come and business completely disappeared.At first I tried seeking help, but there was no one who wanted to help in any way, not even churches I spoke to. I ended up living on the street for a while and I was left with no one, not even the people I was fighting to keep. I tried getting rid of my demons by myself but I felt tied to my chains that were impossible to escape from.Then I wiped out my eyes and noticed that I had become someone I wasn't. I had wronged others who trusted me and this apology is for those people.I am not excusing or reasoning away things I did. I am a ashamed. I am also not asking for pity, but only explaining why my mind was not where it should have been.The way I tried to fix things was never going to be successful. I was wasting everything on substances in my depressive state and became someone I always feared of being.I want all who I have wronged to know that not a day has gone by that I have not regretted what I've done to you. Not a day has gone by that I didn't think about it. Not a day has gone by that I didn't pray for forgiveness and that someday all of you might be able to forgive me. There are no words that can describe how sorry I am.When I finally opened my eyes and saw that I was damaged and what I did to very good people, I had to make a decision. I needed to find myself again and because of my failure in my personal situation, staying in Namibia would not be wise. So I decided to return to South Africa.If I wanted to fix the wrongs I did, I knew I had to first heal and fix my life. The things I did was not deliberate, it was caused by my own weakness, trying to please others, losing focus and making stupid decisions at a very crucial time in my life. Since my return to SA in 2017 my fight has shifted to healing and then correcting my mistakes.I have received threats of physical harm and people from Namibia were looking for me here and attempting unimaginable things. This was when I was still weak, in the healing process, and my depression still alive. I understand their actions.I want everyone to know how sorry I am. None of you deserved any of it. Before everything I was also a good person, and I felt I didn't deserve what happened to me either, but I now know that it doesn't aid me to focus and put the blame on others. I was the one who made the wrong decisions, the one who needs to correct them and should have thought before making any of them. I was stupid and weak, blind, and I am regretful for what I have done.Today I am completely healed and my life has turned around. I have received my priesthood and I am free from depression and any sort of substance abuse.I know to completely be free of my pain I now need to work on correcting the wrongs I committed. I need to and I want to, as it is important to me.I fought hard every day to reach the point I now find myself at. I know asking for all of your forgiveness might be too much to ask, but I just want you to know that even though it was hard, I forgave myself.I know that only apologizing doesn't make things right, but I want to work at correcting with every person I have wronged. For this purpose I ask all of you who I have sinned against to please contact me on social media (Facebook) or email (tyler.giselle@yahoo.com). I am hoping you will contact me so I can make arrangements how I can start to fix things with you.I am in the process of finding new work with my new qualification and shifted my primary focus to make things right with every person I have wronged. Many of you hate, despise and is very angry with me, and you have all the right to be, but now I am healed and I am better than I ever was. Now I will do everything to fix everything I did wrong.Again I want to express my sincerest apology and regret. Thank you and I wish you all well.

To all who I have wronged

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